Don't be...it's sad when people die. As far as you can see your all alone. Death...must be scary All your money, skills, assets, relationships, your age , gender, class....it's all meaningless in the face of death. Death is indiscriminate, it does not care who you are, it delivers us all to the same end....that's whar makes it so fearful no...I just wish I could have been there with her....she must have been so alone.