I wonder if I would have a palace.. would I be able to get helped? Something to think about besides solely the pain

Have you heard of this one scientist named Rick?

mona, not the time for memes on another note though, i recommend you try to focus on your self care and self love because that often helps in situations like these. maybe also try to practice some sort of physical activity like yoga or meditation. im not sure if a therapist would help or just someone to talk to about your problems, like maybe someone who understands what youre going through?? it will be hard to make a start and keep the habit but once you do have a grip on beginning to essentially "get better", itll be easier to keep that up. i would always repeat something positive when thinking a negative thought until it left and eventually i believed more positive things and saw the brighter side of life. focusing on the negative only upsets you more so its recommended to try and see the good things, no matter how small they may be another thing is that personally i would try not to relate your situation and mental health on something fiction, you may believe "but what if" and honestly thats not gonna help. the only person that can help you is you so buck up pal, its gonna be a tough ride tl;dr dont focus on the bad and try to think happy thoughts, learn self love and do stuff to try and release happy hormones ig?? so dont be a pessimist, try to be an optimist

I've know what that's felt like for the past few months. I can say I'm doing a lot better. It's good to openly talk to people about this stuff. If it's a relationship that's swallowing you in anxiety, then I would recommend writing something to them about it. At the same time I had a lot of depression, I also had anxiety, so I was afraid what would happen after I started physically talking to them, so I started writing stuff in letters... Still do! As for beyond that, I don't know... If you haven't gone outside recently, then you can just go out on a really nice day. It makes me feel happier... Listen to the stuff you like (music, audio books, etc.) and take a day off from life. It may seem like a temporary solution, but it's a high chance that the crap you're going through is causing a lot of stress... That's all I've got though... Sorry...

Have you heard of this one scientist named Rick?Don't be an idiot.

..to be fair is he ever not an idiot? On a different note, feeling that emptiness is tough, i know that feeling all too well... And this is gonna sound cheesey, but uou need to be your own phantom thief. You need to believe in yourself and power through whatever is pushing you down! Im sure under the mask of pain is a great person wanting to be set free, so do it! As one of my favorite game characters says, the impossible is possible! All you gotta do is make it so! I believe in you!

Wowza.. I wasn't expecting a response let alone multiple.. Thanks for your kind words. I have a therapist and try my best to keep myself happy, for the past few weeks I've been distracted, I've played through the entirety of P5R and it was nice, and as pathetic as it sounds, kinda like a second life to enjoy, but now that it's over it's like I'm realizing again my situation. I'm doing my best, and I don't plan on stopping my best, it's just gonna be hard

hol up is this for real? ima kinda worried

yeah, distractions arent the best solution trust me i should know because at the end of them reality slaps you in the face and you think ah crap i still gotta deal with this sure theyre a nice runaway thing but theyre defitinitely not the healthiest way of dealing with deep issues but yeah, keep your chin up and try to work through it with your therapist and figers crossed your situation improves :)

Yea distractions aren't great but it's hard to do much of anything else yknow? But I'm trying my best to handle it, I'll get there eventually, thank you ❤️ hol up is this for real? ima kinda worried most certainly for real yea.. in hindsight I realize posting this probably was unwise and unnecessary, but yea

I spent 8 years in a deep depression, and I know far too well what it’s like to feel like there isn’t a light at the end of the tunnel. Life is unapologetically brutal, but that doesn’t mean you have to let it beat you down. Happiness isn’t something you find over night. It can take a long time to feel the way you want to, but the second you get there, you won’t regret a second of anything before that. One day the moment will come when you see the raw beauty of yourself and the world around you, and you’ll know that everything will always be okay in the end. There’s no rush trying to ge there though. Remember that every single day is a new chance to work towards a better tomorrow, and there’s no need to punish yourself if it takes a long time. Eventually you’ll get there, and we’ll all be damn proud of you when you do. Think about it is way, anyone can climb a mountain, but it’s gonna take everyone a different amount of time. Some people might spend their whole lives trying to reach the summit, but there’s absolutely no shame in that. As long as you do your best to climb just a little bit higher up every day, then you’ll be living your life to it’s fullest, and there will always be someone who will help lift you back up if you fall a little, even if you can’t see them yet. Stay strong man. I mean I when I say that you can do this.

Yea distractions aren't great but it's hard to do much of anything else yknow? But I'm trying my best to handle it, I'll get there eventually, thank you ❤️ hol up is this for real? ima kinda worried most certainly for real yea.. in hindsight I realize posting this probably was unwise and unnecessary, but yea No, it’s good to find help wherever you can. If this is a place you feel safe and comfortable saying this kind of stuff (which believe me, it takes a lot of courage to do, and I’m glad you did,) then it’s good that you do it. Putting your true emotions out there, no matter how rough they might be, is one of the biggest steps you have to take if you want to get better.

Thank you.. I'm definitely working to that summit, it's just.. well it's more like I don't know where the top is, or the bottom, this depression started when I was really young (probably about 8 or so) I'd get gaslit and emotionally abused by my family, and school id get physically and verbally abused like for my entire school career until I dropped out of highschool. And even though I'm away from my family they keep worming their way back into the spotlight, trying to convince me I'm in the wrong for hurting and I should forget it and go back to them. Not to mention a few years back to top off my emotional troubles I came out as a trans girl, got abandoned by people I thought were family, and my actual family made things hell. And hell I hate to hide behind my distractions and sound like a dumbass but makes me wish I could steal their heart, have my family back, save my little sister from whatever might happen to her y'know? So as much as I'm trying it to climb it doesn't look like any progress is being made since I don't have any basis on what normal happiness is supposed to feel like.. since you can't really base that off of childhood happiness

Goodness I didn't mean to braindump there, probably gonna bite me eventually

I have seen a lot of people like you pal. Basically you all have suffered a lot and it hurts you. I have suffered the same and believe me I have even hurt my own face due to stress. I have feel you are trying to search for happiness and is like you don't know what happiness is, I think the best thing you can do is try to calm yourself and try to always think with your mind clear because you will see everything from a better perspective. Also, if you are thinking you are not strong enough, as Inari said, it take a lot of courage to do things like this, it means you want to change yourself and what surrounds you and not everyone tries to do that. I'm not sure if this will be accurate but I really hope you make it out.

honestly i couldnt have said it any better than lnari did, that made me feeeel the way i think of it is once you hit rock bottom you can only go up. similarly to a few of you, i suffered with depression from an extremely early age till last year, actually. in high school i was a maaajor bummer, and thats probably because there was bullying and yk fake friends but honestly, as cheesy as it is, what helped me get through it was my online friends and starting college, a lot of people from high school commented on how different i am, and how im much happier and yk, we get along now. i dont blame anyone for what happened in high school, wrong crowds and misunderstandings happen yk, but people can change and when youve made real friends, i guess you kinda just know on a side note, everyone struggles with family at some point in their lives. personally mine are really hard to approach and quite controlling so theres not really much freedom and a lot of high expectations are shoved on the younger of us, that and past abusive experiences, and ongoing verbal abuse, etc but again, like lnari said, the road to happiness isnt easy but its worthwhile and you'd best believe we will be damn proud of you when you reach it and i wanna support you :)) spoilered for people who dont wanna read the irrelevant family situation thing

I've been in that same boat. What I did was I picked up a hobby and devoted myself to becoming better at that one thing. When I did that one thing, I could feel confident, and it would train me mentally so that I could better tackle my feelings. Don't be afraid of your mask, take it off and take a clear look at yourself, entirely truthfully, and improve every little thing you can. That's what I've done, and it worked for me, at least