I don't know...I typically just bottle stuff up....PS: Don't bottle stuff up...

I'm the type of guy who usually acts as an outlet for people to vent though, so if you ever need to talk, feel free to let me know.

As a doctor, I am obligated to help you through any issues you may have

Thanks you two, I guess I can discuss it on here on what it is...
You see, my grandfather had bad breathing problems, leg proble me, andhad to constantly had to go to the doctors. I didn't know he had cancer until to 28th of June. On that day my father was called to help him out of the car. When we got there he was on the ground, he hit his head in the grass. My grandmother was crying as well. We got him a chair and helped him up... After about 5 minutes or so we had to call the ambulance. He was barely talking and moving. After that, the ambulance came to get him to a hospital nearby. Around the 30th of June I visited him at the hospital, he was okay at the time. We talked a bit and promised I would make a picture for him, so I did that night.
On July 1st, 2017, he died in his sleep. One of the last things he saw was a picture I made for him... I attended his funeral with my father's side of the family with my mother as well. I gave him the picture in his casket, it had to be one of the worst things I experienced in my life...

The next one was yesterday, I accidentally peeved someone off on DeviantArt. Curse my accidental arseholeness... It was about people leaking a game that hasn't even come out yet, a Pokemon Sun and Moon situation.
I apologized to them, but they haven't responded as of yet. I feel horrible after that... this the conversation:

VioLight12 10 hours ago
I hope they'll be banned when they go online like in Pokemon Sun/Moon. :/

Anonymous 6 hours ago
Okay. That's just rude. What did they ever do to you? Seriously, People these days are a bunch fucking babies

Anonymous 6 hours ago
Sorry in advance if I sound like a jerk

VioLight12 4 hours ago
You weren't!

VioLight12 4 hours ago

Sorry, I admit I was being rather harsh to them. But to just spoil the story mode of things before any body else is just a jerk move. I should have clarified that if they don't spoil anything nor leaked the download of the game online, they are fine.

Pokemon Sun and Moon had spoilers everywhere, pirated it, spread downloads, streamed it early,etc. Just being assholes, luckily they got what they deserved. It was an extremely harsh ban, a console ban. No eShop and no internet for the system. At least it wasn't bricked though.

I was lucky that I didn't see any spoilers to the story, I pre-ordered Pokemon Moon. I didn't want the experience ruined. (Stupid reason, I know)

But anyways, thanks for pointing out that I was being rude! I don't try to, but I learned now that's it's rude to say that to people!

The first one is genuinely shitty and I am sorry to hear that he passed. I'm not great with stuff like that...

But the second one, you were in the right. Someone was defending a criminal for all intents and purposes. They decided to do something bad and were punished, I agree that they got what they deserved

The loss of a loved one can be quite tragic. As a doctor, it pains me greatly that he wasn't able to be saved. If you need anything to make you feel better, i'll be here for you.

Hey, at least you actually cried at the funeral and don't feel guilty for not crying! In 2013 I went to my Grandpa's funeral, but I didn't cry, and had to move next to my dad, the only person other than me in that seating section who wasn't crying.

In 2016, I finally found how really unfortuanate the death's time was, he was going to go through surgery to fix the problem the day after his death. My mum had that same surgery that year and she is still alive. My Granny also has had that surgery, I think it was 2014 or 2015 when she did, and she is still alive.

Both my other grandparents (my granddad and grandma) and my dad are still alive and didn't have the problem.

Sometimes it's okay to not cry too. Everyone has there own ways of dealing with these things...

I just feel guilty, I wasn't sad at all, but my mum and sister were crying as if it was a crying competition...

Well, there's no need to feel guilty. Everyone accepts a death at a different pace. Really, you did nothing wrong.

We all have different ways of expressing grief after all... @Spectrum Commonly crying, you can't let it bottle it up...

@Kamen_Rider_Ex-aid I wish he was saved he was 63 years old...

@imtherealklib I guess you're right, they were defending criminals... But they seemed so nice on their profile..

@VioLight12 well said, I just hope I was helpful enough in helping you to grieve...

Anyways, I found a site that you can vent on Anonymously called Muttr.com. Then other Anons are so nice... Haven't seen so much nice anons in one place...

Thanks again @Kamen_Rider_Ex-aid for helping me. I missed tons of group therapy with the first situation...