I'm offering to grant you what you cannot have, all you have to do is submit to your desires and you shall be allowed to live out the rest of your life in a fantasy of your own making.
Oh thats the worst year for calmness! Too used to things to be scared of upsetting things, and too new to be worrying about the exams! I hope if I end up having to take a class it will be a first year one...
"Such is life. The fact that you've been handling it as well as you have is a service to your students, Kawakami-sensei...and with any luck, it isn't exactly doing you any harm, but I wouldn't know."