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Hikaru

Thanks for the memories

Hey guys, or to anyone reading this. This isn't exactly easy for me to write, or easy for me to even think properly right now, but I'm gonna be taking an indefinite break from social medias, including this (not like I was really active at all anymore on here anyhow). I've already left a bunch of discord servers and I'm planning to go dark again on social media. To those who cared enough to read this or ask why, well to put it simple, I'm not happy with myself, or with things at all. I feel very out of place wherever I go, if it's related to Phansite or not. Everyone's in their own happy groups or cliques and I'm just facing the facts, I don't belong anywhere. People know how to write creative things, people are outstanding RPers, I'm nothing more than a basic average joe with nothing going on for him. So why bother sticking around, you know? It'll really only make me feel more like shit I guess. It's funny really, no matter how many times I convince myself that I am something, the facts keep coming back and slapping me on the face. I am nothing. To those of you who I've had the privilege to call friends, or to anyone that I've interacted with in a hopefully positive way, thank you for giving me laughs and support, for sticking by me no matter how much of an asshole I was or how much of a dumbass I am. I can't exactly find my words right now, but I guess all I can say is thank you. I'm gonna go back to being a hermit, what I was before I stumbled upon this place. I don't see me returning to any chat rooms or servers or anything for a very long while, or at all. I don't know if I can ever feel happy with myself at all either, but I guess I just have to keep on going on with life. "Blameless wolf carries on alone" as a song went. Guess it's time I should head out. Peace and love -Hikaru

Bgammax

I wouldn't go around calling yourself basic, you've got at least two things going here. 1. You're a good roleplayer whenever you actually have time to do that sort of thing, just don't seem to have been able to recently is all I can figure. 2. You've also kinda become the Castlevania guy. Castlevania likes anyways, gives Joker someone to talk to about games. I guess my point is that its not so much that you "don't belong anywhere", as it seems it is you're too worried to actually go out and do something with them. If you ever want to talk you can PM me here, probably best to use the Tot_Pop account, or DM me on discord. Just in case you don't have me added anymore its Bgammax#0268

Dark_Mona

You'll be lucky just to get away. This site, and many others like it, tend to stick on you like a rash.

Liam

Don't sell yourself so short dude. You're great, you just don't realize it. Try and see the good in you, not just the bad, and don't focus on the bad too much either. Everyone's like that. And don't think you can't be happy. It may take a while, it may get rough, but everyone has a right to be happy, and everyone gets at least some amount. That's just how life is. Some times things go right, sometimes they don't. But you gotta stand tall in the face of it. Don't let yourself get flustered and dragged down by the shit you're facing. Just remember that you'll always be welcome here. And, I hope you'll feel better soon. Good luck man.

JunesBoy

Hey, it's okay to feel out of place. It's easy for people to feel that way. But just know that you have value and worth far beyond what you can see. You might not believe it, but it's true! I love ya, man. You've impacted me a lot from the times we've talked, and I'm sure other people on here can say the same. Take as much time as you need to recover. You'll always be a friend to me, no matter how long we've been apart! So if you ever need to talk or anything, you've got my Snap and Discord, and I just recently started coming back here from time to time. Don't be afraid to reach out to me or anyone else if you ever need to. You don't have to go through this alone^^ In any case, I really hope that you're able to find yourself and be happier with who you are. Best of luck to you, Hikaru!

(edited by JunesBoy)