* she sits down next to sumire.
Listen, I've been alive for hundreds of years. I was hated and rejected for being an unwanted child at first, then for my immortality and powers. I thought a monster like me had no place in the world, and despite that I eventually managed to settle somewhere. Sure, it tool me a millennium, but I found it.
You too will find the place where you're useful, but you won't find it if you just sit down and wallow in self pity.