Tell me, how many of those deaths were you alone for? You had comrades, yes? And were they any better at averting those deaths? The blame does not rest on only your shoulders, the fact that you tried, that is what redeems you.
You should only feel bad about a failure if you put zero effort towards success. Mistakes happen,you cannot change that, but you can continue to work to fix those mistakes. If you fail to save one, then work to save another. even if you continually fail, the effort is whats important.
