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A park somewhere in Tokyo
*He sits on a bench starting blankly at the sky*
*Walks up behind the bench and stands silently, Looking up at the sky as well*
*Looks over at Shinji* Hi Shinji. I'd ask why you're here but you have Nana's memory I already know. *He grimaces* Really went great last night huh?
Actually... Since I cut off from her I don't have her memory anymore...

What happened?

*continues to watch the sky*
*he sighs* Maya turned out to be a shard of Ira. *He laughs* Even so though she was still real... Philemon said it had her memory, and even to the bitter end she still acted like Maya.

You're not the only one that always screws up Shinji. Yet again I've somehow managed to do no good as I watch Maya Amano die...
*sits down on the bench*

It hurts like hell when someone you love dies and there's nothing you can do about it, huh?
*he nods* I already knew that though. The worst part is I don't know how to feel... Maya? The one who's memory is gone? She's still out there in my hometown Shinji I went out and looked last night, probably should of done that to begin with but I couldn't believe it was anything but her.

I couldn't even tell the difference between her and and sometime Ira made.. wasn't willing to look for it, the hell is wrong with me?
Nothing, there's nothing wrong with hoping... praying things will go your way...

I'd do it too... If Ui appeared here in the nexus....
*he frowns* I guess so Shinji. In the end if she were still here I wouldn't really mind her being a shard of Ira... Bastard faked it too well like I said, she was kicking and screaming to her death.
I wonder which is worse.... Watching her die, or just waking up and finding her dead, after a period of her being missing....
*he chuckles* I'm afraid I can't compare. Both times Maya died it was right in front of me... But I can say that they both suck. *He smiles grimly* The only good thing is at least I've still got some hope left. I'll get their memories someday dammit.
Hey, If anything, be thankful it wasn't her, Because that means she's still out there, alive, You can bring her back one day.... And If anyone can, its you...
I am yeah... But it kinda was her in a way, Phil said it had her memory and personality. And I know her well enough to say he's right, so really it's just another her rather than a fake I guess.

But what's done is done and there's no bringing her back from that... No I gotta get stronger now, Yu managed to turn Pride into something useful. I want to try with wrath.
Damn.... I wish I could recover like that....
I'm not recovered. I never really will be Shinji I'm just used to hurting all the time... God I sound like such an edgelord, but it's sadly true.
Heh.... You're more recovered than me....
Give it another 20 years or so you'll probably catch up.
*coming out from behind a tree, the Knight looks grim. Always there for his friends, whether they like it or not"

Pain is what you make of it. One can turn it into pleasure, power, or use it a driving force. As well as use it to simply etch more into your heart. Do what you will, but in my point of view, pain is much like the soul. It gives you personality and character...without it, you are a husk
Heh I guess you got a point... But I think I've gotten pretty of pain.
Then why not use it to push yourself forward?
*looks up at the sky, pondering something*
*he laughs* Were you listening to me? That's exactly what I've been doing and it's what I'll keep doing. I can't just hide this inside my heart and hope it works out though.
*Watching the scene from afar, he whispers to himself* You're not the only one who messed up Tats. I messed up too
*walks to the group while being drenched in blood*

Are you Hunter's marry band of blissful dumbasses?
*silently watching all the conversation from the bushes then makes noise*
*escapes*
Well...

*draws out his Chikage sword*

I am waiting...
*stands up*
You lookin for a fight? Cuz I'm in the mood to crush things.
@Crow_of_Cainhurst

I suggest you watch your tongue, whelp
*Steps out from his cover*
I'll take you on too, asshat!
I'd rather not fight if we don't have to... *He smirks* But hey on the other hand I've got a lotta rage might as well direct it somewhere.
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Let us dance, Dextrous Shade.
So... Who wants to crush him, I'm sure I don't need help to do it, And I know Tats could do it on his own too....
*sheaths the blade*

HA! That was the response I was looking for and now that I got you sacks of skin's attention. Anyone of you babbling twats a friend to the hunter I kicked the hell out of yesterday?
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OOC: meant this to be there
Hmm Hunter? Nah not really. Why do you ask?
@Crow_of_Cainhurst So what if we are?
*Walks up to them, his hand are in his pocket*

Hey guys, what did I miss? Are we fighting or something?
I say he didn't put up with a fight. After the debacle he had with Hubris I just lapped up the job he started. Hunter was a weak sack of good blood wasted and I put him in a good sleep like that old crow Eileen.
And I meant sleep LITERALLY.
Hey Kaz, How's Nanaka doing?
Okay good for you. Are you just trying to pick a fight? Because if so I don't care.
Hey Kaz. How are ya buddy?
Hey Shinji, well...she's still injured, of course, but her condition is stable, so...she should be okay in a few days, hopefully...I can only imagine how tough Ira was...

*He sits down next to them, and yawns*

What a nice day...
I'm okay Joker, just tired.
How about you?
Good... I visited her earlier, its a good thing she heals quickly...
About Ira.... *looks up at the sky* I messed up big on that one, didn't I Tats?
Ira was perhaps the worst day of my life. Which is quite sometime.
@Kazuya I've been better. I'm still thinking about Ira and what happened
How so Joker? We did what we could which was nothing.
Me? A Cainhurst noble picking a fight? Preposterous. Only brutes with no brain cells do that.
So...Ira is gone, huh...?

*He crosses his arms and closes his eyes*

Why did he tried to kill everyone...?
@Tatsuya I meant how I just.... let my anger get the better of me. Ira was defenseless and beaten, I just wanted to eliminate him over a petty grudge *he gets a little teary eyed* I'm no better than the criminals I fought....
Dad said he'd kill him and his sibling. O don't really care though, Maya was a fragment of him.
*he laughs* A Petty grudge? Maybe but I would hardly call you that bad Joker. I still don't beat we could of trusted him. You said you forgave him, me? Nah I was going to bide my time till I got ta say told you so.
@Tatsuya *almost inaudible* Yeah, sure... maybe I'm not..
*he grins at Joker* Of course you aren't! Those people wouldn't even be asking this question Joker! No you're leagues better than them... Probably better than me too.
Hey Kaz, Got a question for ya....
@Tatsuya *A small tear rolls down his face as he smiles* That's a damn lie and you know it. You don't gotta lie to me to make me feel better.
Huh? What is it, Shinji?
Heh, Hang on cuz this'll be a doozy of a question.

What do you feel about Nanaka?
Nanaka...?

I...I'm not really sure, Shinji...
I love Claire but...

*He sighs*
Honestly, I wish I could tell you how she feels... But we aren't connected anymore....
How she feels...?

*He laughs*

She probably just likes me a lot, I doubt she has any kind of...romantic interest, to be honest.
A lie? Joker I'm hardly lying to you.
You never know.... She's not dumb, I don't think she would go so far for someone she "probably just likes a lot"
@Tatsuya *Another tear falls* How do you figure? You're clearly a better person than I am.
*He looks away, blushing slightly*

Still, I don't think it matters...does it...?
Joker I'm not sure where you see yourself as worse than me. Why do you say that?
*Walks in the midst of the park*

Hello everyone.

*Senses the mood*

Okay who exactly died here?
Well, Nana almost did....
@Tatsuya *looks at him baffled* What do you mean Tats? You're a much better person than I am. You have so much more experience, you keep a cooler head than I do, and you're just cool! I just get in the way and try to kill someone who made me feel like trash...*he's crying at this point* What's so special about me?
Did Nana almost die doing something stupid again?
I think so, yeah...
*Smirks*

Well knowing Nana her dumb luck saved her.
I'd suggest watching what you say about my little sister Mishi. Unless you want to join her.
Geez, Shinji calm down, and Mishy, don't be an ass, please?
I don't get how I'm being an ass right now.

Doesn't Nana always end up in trouble.
*Shrugs*

As long as she lives, it doesn't really matter to me.
Most of the trouble Nanaka goes through, she puts herself through on purpose, for a greater cause, Not because she's "Doing something Stupid again".
*Gives Shinji a blank look*

Dude your talking about the girl that once spilled orange juice in Leblanc cause I told her to.

*Sighs*

Anyway how did Nana almost die anyway?

Did something but happen again?
First of all, Nanaka only pretends to be dumb so....

You know what, Telling you would defeat the purpose...

And apparently, a 4000 Pound Building sized Ira fell on top of her...
OOC: Sorry for being slow Joker IRL came up.

Just get in the way? Hardly Joker you're part of the team and you're also my friend... I've spent my whole life screwing up and failing to save people I care for. *He smiles sadly* Trust me Joker if you haven't gotten anyone you love killed you're doing better than I.
Defeat the purpose of what.

*Grows annoyed*

Edgelord you should get off that high horse of yours since your almost as bad as me.

At least I don't screw people over as much as you do.

*His head starts to hurt a bit*

When did Ira become building sized!?

Did I miss something big again?
Hey, Its not like I try to make mistakes, And I ain't on a high horse either.

Hm? You Ok? What's wrong?
I'm fine.

*He grimaces as the head pain continues*

Just my head acting up for some reason.

*He sits on a bench*

Damn I must have had a lot to drink yesterday if my head is acting up like this.
@Tatsuya *Smiles through his tears* You are too kind, ya know. I almost got all my friends killed once. I'm nothing real special. But you, you're something else.
*He pats Mishy's head*

There there, it's okay wolfy...
Weren't you part of the fight Mishi?
*He glares at Kaz*

What did I say about calling me wolfy.

*He pulls Kaz's hand off him*

If you pet me again I might break you arm.

I can't promise my good behavior.
Almost is still alive Joker. My girlfriend got stabbed to death by Hitler as I stood there... But hey thanks Joker.
My right hand is already broken...I would prefer it if the rest of my body still works!

*He laughs nervously*
*Looks confused*

What fight?

What are you guys talking about?
What happened to your hand?
The fight with Ira...
@Tatsuya *wipes his face* No prob Tats. Did you really mean what you said though? About me nor being that bad of a guy. I felt like I was a lot more evil in that moment than Ira ever was...
Well then don't pet me again kaz.

I broke my hand while fighting Delta, Shinji.
Wait there was a fight with Ira!?

*The throbbing in his head increased*

How come I don't know about this?
Of course I did! You're a pretty cool guy Joker. And like I said I still wanted to kill him a little... *He chuckles* I'm never rational about Maya...
@Tatsuya I can get where you're coming from. If I were you and Maya were Star, I wouldn't be able to be rational either
*he nods* Yeah I guess you can... Well I'm heading out now see ya. *He walks away into the city*