Yea, that's it Rei,
Uh, so basically, yesterday all the guys went to the beach to flirt with girls, and I came with them so I could laugh when they failed, but... Uh, Afterwards, I... Met someone, Well I didn't really meet them, I already knew them but... she was.. kind, kind of like you are but different, not the You were kind to me so I'll be kind to you sorta thing, more the, I'll be kind because that's how I am. kinda thing,
Anyway we began talking, And, y'know how I can carry on a serious conversation well? But with her I couldn't do it, I kept thinking about how nice she was, those thoughts led to how I didn't deserve her kindness, and it spiraled out of control from there.
In the end, I did the worst thing a man can do.. I made her cry. And I realized just how much of a pathetic coward and piece of trash I was.
I couldn't even comfort her, I didn't know how, I can talk a good talk but when it comes to people on a personal level I just don't know how to act.
And that's it. I just can't hold back the pain anymore...
